Consultation update and surgery date!

Today I went to see Miles Berry for my top surgery consultation. I don't think I've ever met a doctor who made me feel more comfortable. He was funny, friendly and most of all professional and knowledgeable. I am so impressed by his ability to put me at ease so quickly. Anyway, the consultation was at welbeck hospital in London and this is how it went:
Arrived at hospital
Filled out forms about medical history
Met with surgeon
Talked about the procedure
He looked at my chest and took measurements
Talked more about the procedure
Booked a date
Paid for consultation
Went home

Smooth, simple. Easy.
I'm over the moon, I really am. My surgery is scheduled for may 14th which is just under 3 weeks away. I'm thrilled that its booked in and so happy that it's soon!!

Stealth- To Be or Not To Be?

There's something I want to talk about while it's fresh in my mind. I am subscribed to someone on YouTube that I admire a lot, he is always positive and helpful. He posted a video about coming out as trans after having lived as stealth for a long time. For some, I think this is a wonderful thing to do. It brings awareness and with awareness comes information and education. But I could never do it. I'll tell you why. I have lived as male for about 5 years now, even though I am only in the early stages of medical transition I have never had a problem passing. The reason I am transitioning is to eliminate the question in the back of people's minds when they ask how old I am. I looks about 14 and people just don't believe I am 21! I am also medically transitioning so I can feel more at home in my body. Something that is happening very slowly but I am getting there. Personally, if I came out as trans, I feel people would treat me differently. Instead of being "one of the guys" I'd be "that transsexual", a role I do not wish to play. I am a man, a boy, a guy, a dude, a chap. I am all these things but I do not wish to be trans. I'm proud of who I am and the journey I am on but I do not wish everybody to know. Perceptions change and friendships can become strained. It's just not for me. But for those who are out and proud, I salute you. You are braver men than me and you have my respect. I play my part at the sidelines, on here and on YouTube. I aim to educate and help those who seek me out but that will always be the full extension of my participation in the community. Just wanted to get that off my soon to be flat *fingers crossed* chest!

So many hurdles!

So today we called Welbeck hospital to book in with Dai Davies and have been informed he is taking a 6 month sabbatical. I hope he is alright but this does mean that he won't be my surgeon like I hoped. We were told that Dr Miles Berry has taken over Dai's patients and that I can see him if I choose to. I will call tomorrow to make an appointment with him as I have looked him up online and he seems to be very qualified!
These set backs do irritate me as I like to plan everything down to the minute but I have to get used to it. This is a journey with lots of bumps in the road

4 months on T and some good news

Today I had my third appointment with Dr Curtis at the Transhealth clinic. It is always great to talk with him because he's so friendly. He is also, obviously, well informed. Which makes it feel like a chat with a friend who can solve any problems or queries you may have. So after a nice talk about how testogel is going for me he asked me what the next step would be for me. I said I'd like to get top surgery out of the way and badabingbadaboom. Referral. So, next week I will be calling Dai Davies at welbeck hospital to book a consultation. I'm so excited its unreal. I never thought this day would actually come!

As far as the gel goes, I still love it. My changes are nice and steady and not too slow. My voice is still getting steadily deeper, my body hair is coming through like mad and I even have patches of facial hair! My periods seem to have completely stopped now, which is really nice. No more monthly hassle and dysphoria about it! I still sweat like crazy but I don't even mind that!
Life is good today.